maybe i can sleep until you come back to me.
i’m feeling really unappreciated
you’ve taken my love for granted baby
and i dont know how much i can take from you….
you dont do the things you used to do
you dont even say i love you too
and lately
ive been feeling really unappreciated.
this love is taking all of my energy.
i’m not stupid. i know you think i am. thats why you lie and tell me everything is ok when i know it’s not. i know us….i feel us to my core. how many times do i have to explain that you can’t hide and run away from me? that i can feel everything that you feel when you feel it?….i cant reach you anymore and i dont know why. its like as soon as you left me physically…you left emotionally and mentally too. i need you here with me. you said we were a team, you said that we could get through anything together and now im not so sure. all of the ups and downs are making me dizzy. i love roller coasters, just not ours. and the truth is i could handle it all…ALL. if you were just honest with me. fine. you dont like to miss me. fine. you’d rather just feel nothing instead…all this i understand i can deal with it. what i CAN’T deal with is you making it seem like everything is ok…when i know its not. i can hear it and i can feel it. DO YOU THINK THAT IM AN IDIOT? it seems like you do. these last couple days i’ve been thinking and you’ve been getting worse. i’ve been doubting and you’ve been getting worse. i’ve thought and i’ve doubted and now im tired…im tired and i wanna be bad. and i know that that’s wrong to say and to even feel or think. but it’s the truth and i never hold te truth back from you. i can feel the girl i used to be wanting to come out and have some fun. i can hear her whispering in my thoughts “he’s not perfect, you knew it’d never last” ….i dont wanna feel this way i dont want my old attitude to come back and haunt me for the rest of my life. you said that my future was a clean slate and that i could start over, that you’d love me and never leave me. that you’d be better to me….im not so sure i believe that anymore. i told you that i wanted my future to be with you…im not so sure i believe that anymore.
emotional distance is worse than the physical.
a piercing. a tattoo. something needs to take this feeling away.
it’s time like these i start to feel itchy and in need of a drink, a dress, a club and a dance.
the old me wants to come out and dance a little…will you dance with me? or will you stay away?
this life has been hard on my bones.
im fat again. its depressing.
you my dear need to be 18…asapTaylor Lautner - Team Jacob
EW’s December 4, 2009 Collector’s Cover 2 0f 3
